YMonday, November 06, 2006
was lost and confused..didnt think i know myself till i met him.
and then it all changed into something that simply hurt.

i was on my usual breakdown wer everything became useless and painful and i got so lost. and he weren't there. i know he aint no mind reader for shites. no one is.
maybe i expect too much. but its not like i didnt try to explain.

i brokedown in remorse and in fear of being alone.
i was literally alone and needed him there. but he couldnt be there.
and its not like he tried. where are we heading to now and what happened to all those promises we made?

is it true what they say? that being in love and trusting someone will just cause u pain in the end?

i don't know.

im still at the state wer i was 2days ago..
wer everything dun seem rite. like im dumped in a pool of thick black tar that's starting to suffocate me..killing me softly..slowly inside..clinging on to the littlest of hope.
im not over-reacting.trust me.

i've tried to keep a strong front..but it's takin it's toll on me.
i have to pull myself out of this. i duno how.but i know i should try.

thanks to my beloved buddies who's been keepin me company till late nites..
i love you guys. for being aound.

and yeah has..we are so gona cut our hair that short and look like twins.
hehe..except that im gona get the lil green hilite..hmmmm.
_callous_ was here with you at 1:03 AM .